Dad had another ministroke on Friday so I went to see him -$NZ60 return fare. Apart from that I have only paid for groceries.

My sneakers are getting pretty worn, so the question is whether I should replace them now, or wear the good leather shoes in my wardrobe. I must admit, I don't wear dress up shoes very often. Comfort is all important as i have to walk a lot for my condition. Lots of people would think themselves blessed to have 2 pairs of shoes.

Bro keeps talking about about the need to preserve dad's capital, which makes me think he is interested in how much he will inherit (has made some poor business decisions and needs a bailout.) I feel very guilty and uncomfortable at the thought if dad dies soon I will inherit over $100,000, but I must admit the money would be very handy. I would have to very careful and not squander what dad has spent his life building up. But really I wish he had taken the time to enjoy it more. He always wanted a trip back to the Old Country, but kept putting it off because he didn't think he could afford it - now he will never go. That makes me sad.